DYING IS EASY LIVING IS HARD

what the hell!

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 00:52:30 GMT

wow has it been awhile since i have done this..... but hey well anywho ummm yeah incase you live under a rock you probley already know iam in a group home and it sucks! big ass balls! the people are simply crazy as fuck and i dont know how much longer i can last before i snap......i am slowly going more crazy then i was before i came to this horrid place. its like being in twenty-four hour thearpy... with the how does that make you feel? crap and would you like to talk about it? bullshit i really ready to smack a ho! but anywo does anyone even come on this site anymore? huh well i dont give a shit either way you kids and your freedom thinking you damn fucking sububan life is so hard ha you dont even know the half of hard or fucked up god damnit and theres noone here to punch me in the face when i wont shut the fuck up and i cant do it myself because its "self-harm" and that would mean more therapy and more pills that i dont like god damn mother fucking bastards!!!
shut the fuck up all of you!!!1
going crazy
captainkochie

and so the adventure began.....

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 01:56:04 GMT

went to gwar that kicked ass alot has happend but i have just been a lazy stoner and well this isnt my first prioity(is that how you spell that?fuck it) got to go to court tomarrow that should be a dandy time ranaway got woken up by the cops and draged out of olivias.. whiched sucked for every one there probley. got home and got beat up by my grams god i wish i could hit her back if i did she would call the pigs imeeditly and i would go away no matter how bloody i was..this syteam is fucked up.. who the fuck knows i will probley be leaving soon and going to foster care wooptie fucking do no one in this house wants me here anymore i am not apart of my family anymore they say they care but in the end they will do anything to fuck me over and get them ahead my family is too fucked up everything is fucked up i think i may need some days to think

fucking judge grove......

later jen

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 02:14:29 GMT

Your Career as a Deadly Assassin (LJ) by maxgallagher
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Gender
You first killed at age	11
Your victim was	A celebrity
Reason	Money
Your trademark weapon	Dual pistols
Your reputation	Shadowy and mysterious
You work with	bobby_jean
You kill for	Revenge
In the end, you are defeated by	sillykripples
Your death	Suffocated in your sleep
Your career body-count	481

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something i can never have....

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 07:35:13 GMT

i still recall the taste of your tears
echoing your voice just like a ringing in my ear.
my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
scrapping thourh my head till i dont want to sleep anymore
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i am down to just one thing i am down to one last thing and i starting to scare myself
you make this all go away you make this all go away
i just want somthing i just want somthing i can never have....

you allways were the to show me how back then i couldnt do the things that i can do now
this thing is slowly taking me apart
grey would be the color if i had a heart...

come on and tell me
you make this all go away you make this all go away i am down to just one thing and i am starting to scare myself
you make this all go away you make this all go away
i just want somthing i just want somthing i can never have

in this place it seems like such a shame though it all looks diffrent now i know its still the same
everywhere i look your all i see just a fadeing fucking reminder of who i used to be
you make this all go away
i am down to just one thing and i am starting to scare myself
you make this all go away

i just want something i can never have....

good song somthing i can never have - nine inch nails
incredibly emo but i dont give a shit

shut up and dont care..(krazy times kripples)

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 09:11:57 GMT

well well well iam back i still cant sleep well then again i havent tryied so maybe i should at least try...ahhh fuck it whats the use in trying when i know iam just going to go lay in my bed and watch the magic bullet infomucial a thousand more times although that one is entertaining the god damn thing is shaped like a penis! and you can tell they are all actors its the greatest...i am some what of a infomercial junkie i think its what i do at this time usally but now i have the great power on the interweb and now i am technologly advanced! wooo hooo now i rule nothing and my life will never amount to anything! wwoooo hooo i dont think i am going to school tomarrow if i have somthing better to do anywho
i will go watch the infomerchial i made it sound like fun to watch or maybe some wierd cartoon will be on i am going to shut the fuck up now

-captain obvious kochie

to wired to live to rare to die

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 08:05:29 GMT

well i had a thought and alot to write about but now i have forgotten it all it was long and detailed to damn.... i think it had to do with my rambling from earliyer anywho o yes i was going to descibe somthing and it more or less had to do with sex...not the best subject for me..... everyone i want to have sex with anyone who is older will do the worst thing and its makes me want to kill them, they will sit there tell me iam pretty (something i dont belive) tell me how much that i act so much older and shit like that then when it comes down to it they say those words that make me feal like shit "i wish you were older" what the fuck????!!?!?! i do also wish i was older so i wouldnt have to deal with stupid fourteen year old shit think about this though what the fuck were you like at my age? if i act like you now what will i act when iam that old? who knows? even so to the above mentioned if i am so god damn pretty why the fuck cant i find someone to love someone who wont be a crackhead or bucktoothed or a dirty fucking british piceace of shit! which i did not love i hate all of those kind someone like me....but i always fuck it up somehow i will have somewhat of a chance then i will be a bitch and well fuck it up.... i dont know what i am rambling about anymore i just need to be away from this fuck up life that i have made for myself away from being a child a slut a freak i want to go somewhere were no one knows who the fuck i am...i have been planing waiting but problem i have no money no car no were to go and personally i wouldnt give head or other sexual favors for a ride or a place to stay. a big problem with being a girl so hard to get away when your not much of a slut.....anywho enough of my emo bullshit rambling

i wish i had some drugs or some liquior

just anouther freak in the freak kindom....i spent all day watching fear and loathing and pink floyd the wall and slc punk which i have seen to many times and i hate now but my fucking cusion forced me to watch it god damn him...anywho i am bored and cant sleep so i might write later and you can read more of my bullshit...

captain kochie obvious

bored

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 18:34:50 GMT

god damn is my life boring..went to the mall yesterday and saw my worst nightmare.....crackhead timbo and jamie and they were talking to me about friday and my grams was sitting next to me i want them both dead! i dont know anymore why is it that crackheads and ugly people seem to be the only people who are attracted to me not that looks matter or anything i mean in personallity. why the fuck and why do people proclaim there love to me even though they have only known me 20min those people should die...one of my problems is that i have these bad abandonment issues brought on by my parents when they used to leave us for months at a time when they were on meth....and well i get to attached so i push people away before they can but it only takes them some odd amount of minutes and its seems so fake how you can meet someone and ten minutes later they wont leave alone act like your a part of property and keeps asking you out! god damnit! anyway enough of my bitching.....later bitches

Captain obvious kochie

crazy go nuts

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 02:05:36 GMT

cousins are in town not so fun times, got couaght smoking last night by my grams also not so fun times but if i get drunk or stoned this weekend i think it will make it a little better..... but anyway dont know what i am doing so this is kind of pointless and no one reads this and this is pretty gay sort of love thouse hott dripping ass girls......i luv you whittee and your babies

jen

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 07:55:06 GMT

there is an ivisible cage,a delicate netting of glass, and ice sculpture surrounding me that no one can walk though. iam cold. i've frozen into someone who just can't be touched..... i dare you to try

hi

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 07:33:24 GMT

well well well i filnally got one of these fine things wow i am hardcore to the max now! hahahahah jk
anywho propley no one is going to read this soooooo.........ummmm yes dont know friday was fucked up and the cop is going to call me back soon about the sperm samples ooooo fun yes yes i wonder whos is on those?
i mean really not to many people hopefully i am not that much of a slut am i? some people would think so but i do have some self-respect left dammit! but it is slowly slipping away from me and if only i wasnt so black hearted to keep pushing all the guys that like me away..i have those bad abandonment issues so i tend to push someone away before they can do that to me i guess or some gay shit like that i dont know...just another lonley crackhead (notliterly of course)in the wourld.

"all the lonley people where do they all come from? all the lonley people where do they all belong?"